Dear Ishmael,
...I don't love you, Ishmael. I can think of no more honest way to say
it. From the very beginning, when we
were little children, it seemed to me something was wrong. Whenever we were together I knew it. I felt it inside of me. I loved you and I didn't love you at the very
same moment, and I felt troubled and confused.
Now, everything is obvious to me and I feel I have to tell you the
truth... I am not yours any more.
I wish you the very best, Ishmael. Your heart is large and you are gentle and
kind, and I know you will do great things in this world, but now I must say
good-bye to you. I am going to move on
with my life as best I can, and I hope that you will too.
Sincerely,
Hatsue Imada
Snow Falling on
Cedars, by David Guterson, is an emotional story in which we see the life of a
man who could not move on and a woman
that did. The man, Ishmael, is
hopelessly in love with the woman, Hatsue.
His love for her can not be dissuaded by anything; not her words, her
wishes, or her marriage. He holds on to
Hatsue because of his feelings for her, even after he gains the knowledge that
it is extremely improbable that he could ever be with her. Hatsue is much more logical and rational with
her feelings. She saw her love with Ishmael
for what it was. She realized she did
not really love him and that she was still learning what love really is. She moved on with her life, whereas Ishmael
could not.
Ishmael's view of love did not change
throughout the novel. He met Hatsue as a
child, and formed the idea that he loved her through his limited knowledge and
through his adolescent view of relationships.
His love was simplistic, yet real.
He had concrete reasons for his love.
He enjoyed being with her. He
looked forward to meeting her in the hollow cedar tree. He went out of his way to see her, even if
she did not see him. He thought of her
no matter what he was doing. In the
simplest sense of the word, he loved Hatsue.
Hatsue was the
second to think she fell in love. She
reacted to Ishmael. When they kissed on
the boat, she did not think as much of it as Ishmael. She did not realize he loved her until he
told her. She then realized she liked
being with him, and returned his love partially in spirit, but completely in
word. Her initial intent was to extend
friendship towards Ishmael. They were
friends since their early childhood, and Hatsue saw nothing more of it on her
own. Deep down, she just wanted to be
really good friends, even if she did not realize it at the time.
The turning point
in their lives was not caused by the war, but this eventuality was brought
about sooner because of it. When Ishmael
told Hatsue that he would be going off to war, he was really asking her if she
would wait for him. That day when they held
each other it was not the same. They
both realized that they were victims of circumstances out of their
control. However, Ishmael believed they
could overcome them. In fact, it was not
the war that was the obstacle. It was
the fact that Hatsue was not sure of her feelings. At that point Hatsue finally realized she did
not love Ishmael, while Ishmael was as sure as ever of his love.
Hatsue was
finally in touch with her real feelings.
She had become mature enough in her mind to understand the feelings she
had, and she had none beyond that of friendship for Ishmael. She felt a moral obligation to tell Ishmael
of her feelings, which she did. Upon
recieving this letter Ishmael was crushed.
Yet his love for Hatsue did not diminish. She told him that she would not be happy with
him, and later he found she had married someone else. He could not accept the fact that Hatsue
would never be with him. When Ishmael
had proof of Kabuo's innocence late in the novel, he hesitated in bringing it
forward. This reveals much about the
type of love Ishmael had for Hatsue. His
love was definitely the same love he had as a child for her. It was selfish love. He wanted to be with Hatsue, no matter what
she wanted. He did not care
substantially about her happiness.
Instead of accepting the fact that she was happy with Kabuo, he held
resentment for their marriage and had he had weaker morals would have done
anything to take them apart. He did not
truly care about Hatsue; he only cared about having her for himself. Even when he came to her with the evidence
and she told him again that it would make her very happy if he would find
someone else, he could not. His life was
miserable because he could not accept Hatsue's decision and true feelings.
Hatsue and Ishmael did not work out because
they were incompatible. It was not due
to circumstances; not the war, the camp where Hatsue was taken, their parents,
or Kabuo. Ishmael loved Hatsue only
because of what she did for him, he did not care for her. Hatsue never loved Ishmael, although for a
time she thought she did. Once either
one became mature enough to realize this, their relationship was doomed. Had Ishmael realized his love was not true
love, he would have had to move away from Hatsue. In the novel the opposite is true, and Hatsue
is forced to leave Ishmael. They were
wrong from the start. The best they
could have hoped for was friendship, which sadly they could not achive because
of Ishmael's need for the return of his love from Hatsue.
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